well I have to say I'm an emotional roller-coaster officially!!. I found out last week thursday night/early friday again that I'm pregnant. After I sold all of our baby stuff/gave it away and was actually getting use to the fact of only having 2 kids... isn't that funny it seems to be that's when Heavenly Father just decides to throw a wrench in everything. I was getting just too comfortable and needed something to help me grow and push me.. so why don't we just give her another baby??? As excited as I am I'm just as nervous, I'm nervous about the stupid Dr bill that we will get when the baby is born, but I'm almost positive that I will qualify for MA to be able to get help with our bills, and also WIC for help with baby stuff. I'm actually getting a little excited it's 6 weeks next wed (it's friday today). which is when I actually mis-carried last time.. so I"m just really praying that I can get over this little week, I have my first appt/Ultra sound on June 13th. just to check on everything with baby.. so I'm really excited to see that, it always makes it a little more real once that happens! Nixon is finally coming around I think, I don't think it's really sunk in for him yet though.. cause he doesn't really like to talk a whole lot about it, but he did say last night that he just wants to find out if it's girl/boy so he can come up with a name.. I was considering waiting until baby was born, but I guess that just isn't an option with him. I don't know if I would actually be able to wait either.. but the thought of it sure would be a great surprise!!! it's not like we really need to get anything this time around except for a new car-seat which I've already picked out it's pretty awesome and only weighs  8 lbs which is half the weight of our last one, and if it's a boy anything like Niko he will be BIG!! anyway just had to do some catch up. I don't really have any symptoms yet besides being a little bit tired, which is always though with my crazy kids, but that's about it, no nauseous, or anything like that which is nice, we'll see what the next few weeks have to offer me.