well if you were to ask me I would swear that I'm pregnant... good or bad, My dreams are crazy vivid like they are when I'm pregnant, it seems like I have to pee 2-3x a night now, I could not get comfortable last night to save my life.. I eventually had to go get the body pillow to get comfortable, I have heart burn from little things... and I woke up this morning around 1am nauseous. so add all that up and you would say hmmmmm, but it's still too early to check. I just don't want to get too excited and have the same thing happen again... today is memorial day and we've just been chill in.. Nixon got an awesome review, and I'm really excited to pay off the car repairs finally that we had to charge.. and then with the raise that he got we should be able to be almost debt free by the end of this year :) we need to stick to our budget though!!!!!  We are truly blessed! I've been doing green smoothies lately and other fruit smoothies they've been soo yummy. I love eating all the fruits and veggies, plus the added bonus of everything is so good for us.. a little more expensive on the grocery list but well worth the good for you aspect!  So if we get pregnant this month. little one would be due around the beginning of feb which is great timing because we would have our taxes and our credit cards paid, and we would be in a great spot financially. So maybe that is what the lord was preparing us for. I'm not sure I'm just thankful that his work finally realized how great of an employee he is and to start paying him as such. Everyone there was making more than him and he was there longer... so it's great. well Niko just got up   and Nixon wants to buy some shoes so off to the mall we go :)

it's been awhile, but here I am again.. yesterday was Nixon's birthday, this tuesday we are going out for dinner and a movie, Reva is watching our kids, it's been since December since we've been out together. hopefully Nixon will be in a good mood!! Yesterday we had  a ton of rain.. lucky we didn't flood! Nixon cleaned out our gutters on thursday, friday so we were in the clear. Sat our van broke down and cost us $700 in repairs... ouch!!! so that's why it was a gloomy birthday weekend for Nixon. we were lucky thought that it was nothing to do with the engine, or inside the motor, so it could have been a lot worse. well that is it for now, we are once again on the baby-making train.. I honestly do think that something is up with my body though.. I had cramping once again around the time that I should be ovulating, and then cramping again, around the time that I would have conceived, if it worked, just like in April when I mis-carried... and then a little bit sore.. so I'm really hoping that everything is healthy and o.k. with me.. I'm beginning to get worried and a little scared. I know that if it is the Lord's will that I will become pregnant I just hope and pray that everything is healthy and o.k. That's it for now, hopefully it won't be  a full month before I post again. :)