well we are finally re-cooperating over here and everyone is healthy. I tell you that virus seriously gave me a scare and it was exhausting on all accounts. Niko had it first for 10 with a fever, we ended up at the pediatrician 2x and nothing they could do, shortly after Meeka caught it. Meeka it scared me something fierce, her fever would get up to 105, with Niko it never went above 102-103 tops, and I could easily get it down, her I would have to give her ibuprofen and tylenol, then one night after I had given her ibuprofen after over an hour it didn't go down and it went up to 105, needless to say we ended up in the ER, crazy, tired night, we got out around 130am. yuck! they did a urine sample, chest X-ray strep test, all that jazz and everything came back normal, we followed up with our pediatrician the next day and they did a white blood count, which came back elevated but still within the normal, DR said to watch make sure it starts trending down if not by friday to come back... well it never went down so once again on Friday here we were at the Dr.s he said she looked normal but that if it continued through the wknd they would test for limes, kowasaki, and mono. By this time I'm kinda scared and freaked out, I had contacted our relief society president to get someone to give Meeka a blessing, Brother Beecher and the missionaries came over and gave her a blessing, she was blessed to have  a full recovery, which was very comforting considering the Dr's didn't k now what was going on.. On Saturday she had no fever all day, and then on Sunday we were able to go to church, I truly believe it was a miracle, and am very thankful for the priesthood and how it blesses us in our lives. I know that Heavenly Father was looking out for Meeka and our family and he truly did bless her in her time of need.    

       Onto other news today I went and applied for WIC I got my vouchers for myself and then I have to go back on Monday and get Niko enrolled also, so far I'm just glad to get the help that I can. We need it right now and especially with baby on the way we need to start paying off our debt. I got the medical bill for Niko's visit to the Dr and it was about $250 that we would owe, we will have one of those for Meeka than plus all of her ER tests... not looking forward to that. I'm hoping that MA will kick in and help pay for it but who knows...  That's about it for now, still feeling bloated, and nausea sometimes, have cravings quite a bit, last night it was lemon. Nixon was a doll and went and got me lemon bars from the store :) so that fixed that. Well Gotta go make some dinner, spaghetti and meatballs :)

well today was my first OB appt. I had an ultra sound too, everything looked good just like it should for baby at 7 weeks :) Which is very re-assuring!! My next appt is July 11th at 3pm. Hopefully we'll be able to pick up baby's heartbeat. That will be pretty cool. Got to see the heartbeat today which is always re-assuring!  Nixon still can't believe it, I think he's pretty stunned, at the same time I think neither one of us really wanted to get our hopes up too high because of my miscarriage last april, so we both didn't want to deal with the disappointment again, but so far so good for baby!! I don't think it's really sunk in yet, and most likely won't until I start to get BIG :) I already get bloated, but that's expected, I talked with the nurse today and since I'm older than the maternal age at my 20 week appt I have to get a 4D ultra sound, which seems really cool, yet scary, because they can pick up more birth defects that way and is standard the nurse told me for ALL women over age 35.. well way to make me feel old, and then of course she brings out the statistics of all the birth defects since I'll be 38 when I deliver, in all honesty I don't really care, this is the time, and this is the baby that Heavenly Father wanted us to have, he's going to make this baby PERFECT for US!! no matter what so getting the genetic testing doesn't really change my mind about things, and definitely would not help me prepare for the baby to be born. so it is what it is, I'm going to love it unconditionally anyway!  but I'm sure that everything will be just fine! :) Deep down inside I do hope for another girl though.. I don't know if I could handle another Niko.. man he's a creature! well that's it for today. I"ve actually been getting better at writing, so hopefully my entire pregnancy won't go by and you won't hear from me :) I have my appt with WIC on the 25th for me and the 30th for Niko, so hopefully we'll be able to get some assistance there :) Keep my fingers crossed since I'm done watching Armina, hopefully we can make things and ends meet.

This week has been  a hectic one. Meeka had her Kindergarten graduation on Wednesday, it was just a short little ceremony in her class with her teacher and parents, and then fruit snacks and juice boxes afterwards. She has a great teacher, and some great people that work with her! Unfortunately Niko has been sick this whole week, it started last Tuesday with a fever, for 2 days than it went away and came back on Sunday, stayed we went in on Monday, they said just to watch it and if symptoms got worse or still had a fever to go in on Wed, well Wed came along and he started coughing hard, and still had his fever, so back we were to the Dr, another Dr checked him out, said it was still viral... ugh I seriously hate having sick kids, I feel absolutely helpless, then Wed night came a long and as I was putting Meeka to bed sure enough she felt hot, took her temp 102... ughhhhh.... So here we are 2 sick kids.  On the plus side I now know that it is viral and not pneumonia  with Niko...
     Good side of things tomorrow is my first OB appt and I couldn't be more excited, I get to have an ultra sound at 1pm and then meet with the nurse at 2pm. I can't wait to make sure everything is just going o.k. with little peanut. I've been really nervous this time around because of my previous mis-carriage.. but also so excited I want to scream to the world.. nausea has kicked in along with sleeplessness (with sick kids it hasn't helped) and the cravings..OH the cravings... today it's been hummus bread with meat and cheese and basil, along with cheesecake and then I want spinach dip with hawaiian sweet bread and a seafood salad with crackers from cub.. and I can't go anywhere because both kids have  a fever and seriously I"m just going crazy from food!!!! and it' shorrible because this time around I can only eat small amounts, usually it kicks in later on in my pregnancy that I can only eat small amounts and  being bloated, but no not this one, right off the bat.. ugh so frustrating, the only thing that helps is sparkling water.. so we have to get that and I drink about 2 a day to help with the bloating. luckily heartburn hasn't kicked in too bad yet keep my fingers crossed that it won't!!!  I love my spicy food too much!!!  I had Nixon go and get pupusas the other day, like I said the cravings are seriously in FULL SWING already and I don't foresee them going anywhere anytime soon... at least it hasn't been anything that is too bad for me :) like a pan of brownies.. I got that with Niko.. seriously so yummy! but  I still have about 32 weeks to go.. ugh just to think about it. I'm only 7 weeks along not even through with first trimester yet. I've only told my mom and Maryann. waiting to tell everyone else until I'm further along and also I really want the reassurance of the ultra sound tomorrow. I"m just so nervous. Well thats it for today I gotta cal Nixon to ensure that he stops at the grocery store for me!

ugh....well nausea has reared it's ugly head yesterday and today... well that didn't last long the kids are into trouble, here's to no puking. btw I usually don't puke, but it's not pretty the way I feel

today all in all was a great day, unfortunately we did not qualify for SNAP we make $200 too much... how crappy is that, but the good news is that once the baby is born in Jan we will qualify we just need to bring in the birth certificate and than Nixon's paystubs.. so all is well in that, this way we are in the system and everything will be much quicker next time around. once I got home I applied for MA for Niko and got him covered and myself covered under medical also(being pregnant) so my pre-natal, hospital stay labor and delivery will be covered and also the newborn will be. I'm not sure at what % it's covered yet, but it's covered, so thankful for that, and Niko will hopefully now be able to be evaluated medically for Autism Spectrum, and be able to receive some services for  his disability.. so very exciting! Moving forward and I know that the Lord is truly blessing us in our time of need as to what we need!!! My next appt for the baby is June 13th, after that appt I can go to WIC and apply, and since we are on MA we will automatically get covered for WIC, how great is that! Pretty exciting also.. Everything is slowly falling into place for us, and I just know without a shadow of a doubt that the Lord is providing a way for this new bundle of joy to come into our lives! I'm getting excited now.

Today was a great day at church it was fast and testimony mtg, and then in sunday school they talked about the restoration of the church, I have lately been feeling such a great fulness to my heavenly father and the power of prayer, it is so completely evident that he knows each and every one of us individually and that he loves us, he knows our trials, our wants our desires, our struggles, and he is ever present during this time. with my pregnancy i have had such a whirl wind of emotions, of being scared, excited, nervous about money etc, etc. ... with all this going on. I know that it is the right time, and through all this craziness I feel  at peace that this child is what Heavenly Father wants for our family.. As crazy as that sounds!!!  and that this is the right time for this child to come into our lives, and that everything is going to be just fine.. yes we will struggle and it won't always be o.k.  but that Heavenly Father is there for us in time of need and all we have to do is ask, and pray and remember that he is always there for us! and with this I feel at peace. I know that I've always been really stressed out about each kids but with this one I feel  the most at peace.. even though we sold all of our baby stuff(except) the clothes and don't really know where we are going to put this little one, because I still sleep with both kids most nights.. but I do know that everything is going to be just fine! and in that I find peace. and I'm thankful. I just get excited for time to tick by, because it's going to go soooooooo slow with this pregnancy I have a feeling, but at the same time it will go really fast.. just like they say the days go by slow but the months fast... so right now it's slow going and Im just excited  for my first appt on June 13th, I also have an ultra sound that day so I"m really excited to see the little peanut! :) so until then that's all I have it was a great Sunday and I felt really uplifted.