haha well it's pretty much my norm to not post for a whole year... well here it is 1 year later, 1 year of ups and downs and trying to conceive, I finally just had to call it quits! It was seriously exhausting, and worrying, and hoping and so much stress.. I just couldn't deal with it any longer, I feel the Lord will bless me with another child if and when the time is right... Well Meeka is now almost done with her first year of Kindergarten, it's been a great year for her, she has truly excelled and started to learn more and more, her teacher is great, and her speech teacher I LOVE!! She truly loves to work with Meeka and loves her... Niko is now also in school he just started and is going 1 day a week, he is having a very hard time.. we will meet with his teachers again this Friday. I have a feeling that this school stuff will be very difficult for him. Right now everything is pretty hard for him, and myself. I get very stressed out and I have to try to remember patience with him.. Well we went to CA this year, we drove over Meeka's Spring break, total spur of the moment trip but well worth every penny . We stayed with my mom to save money and actually it was really good, I was very scared, but it ended up being good with the kids! We of course went to Disney Land, the kids had  a blast, we stayed ALL DAY!! Nixon and I already said that next year we will have to go for 3 days, cause we hardly got to see it. We did a TON of shopping I think Nixon is set for clothes for the next 3 years :) anyway it was a really good trip and Nixon got to see his relatives in LA which he hasn't seen in about 10 years and his mom who he hasn't seen in longer.. I"ve never met her and she got to meet the kids. It was quite awkward, but good to get done! then the trip home.... I now babysit a little girl during the week, which is nice to get paid a little extra cash, to help pay off our debts and have some extra spending money :) Jeremy is staying with us for a little while to help get on track with things in his life, I really hope he can start to make some good decisions and be happy. I feel he is truly not happy in his life, and its hard to watch, but I can only suggest and say so much :) I do love him though and hope the best for him.  Nixon's Birthday is of course coming up, which is about the last time I posted, funny that that time the van needed repairs, we just got done repairing the van again.. about $1000 yuck!!  For Valentines day I got a beautiful upgrade to my ring and band /10 year anniversary for us :) I ABSOLUTELY love it to pieces, I catch myself staring at it quite often, it's always what I've dreamed of!! I also can't believe we've now this year been married for 9 years and together for 11... where does the time go??? anyway I think that that is truly enough for me for now,, who knows maybe another year, I gotta figure out how to post pics on here and i'll put on our disney pics! :)