well, yesterday I started bleeding, and yes unfortunately I mis-carried. I called the Dr. went in and gave blood work and my test came back negative for a pregnancy. I honestly don't know what is harder, getting pregnant right away and than mis-carrying or taking forever to get pregnant and month after month wanting something so bad and it seems like it will never happen, or having it happen right away only to have it ripped away from you... I guess Heavenly Father just has other plans in store for me, or it's just not the right timing. as they say it's all in Heavenly Father's plan for each and every one of us. I can just pray that everything will work out and that I will still be able to have another child. I try not to think about it and just go on with my daily lives and be thankful for the two healthy children that I do have. count my blessings that I do have, it's hard because I wanted another child so bad and I thought that I was so thankful to be having another child so soon and that it Heavenly Father truly was blessing us with another child, but I know there is something for me to love and be thankful for in this that I need to learn and grow and I will figure it out. but for now I'm just getting by and trying to keep my head high and be there for my family.