well yesterday Niko had his screening.. As much as I was looking forward to it, I was dreading it. As a parent we always tell ourselves we want the best for our children. We want them to be smart, loving, and successful in whatever they choose to do. and of course happy.. Well when I found out that Meeka was severly behind in her speech of course I beat myself up over it as her mother, racking my brain as to what I could have done differently to help her, why she wasn't talking. why I was the bad parent. So when Niko was born I told myself I'm going to double my efforts, I did, I sang to him, I read to him, I interacted with him, everything that I should be doing. and yet here I am once again with a child that is delayed in speech. I do feel that it is my fault, even though the teachers always say that it's not, but I feel that way.. I feel that there is MORE that I should have been doing.. so Niko will get tested again. the first screening the teacher said that  she would refer him on to the next teacher, because by now he should have at least 10 words down and he has none... as much as I'm glad that he will get the service and the help I feel that o nce again I have failed as a parent. Well this week is going to be a busy one, Meeka has dance on Wed, we have parents night on  Thu, and then something on friday I forget right now but it's on the calendar, so  it's a busy one.